I'm Confused

Over the last year or so I have been piecing together what I want to do with my life (ironically this all started when I was in my last semester of school for health information technology which is what I don't want to do). What I would love to do is produce and market television shows or podcasts, maybe even some event planning. Basically anything creative in the entertainment world for people to enjoy. That realization is an amazing feeling because I have found what I love and am passionate about, but it is also super scary and confusing because it is a completely new direction. I am used to being settled, my parents are my rock and provided with me with love and security. Right now though I have no idea where life is taking me I just have to roll with the punches and work towards my goal. I am considering making another move to Kansas City to work with my brother in law on media production for his church. Which is an opportunity that I can't pass up. He and I had a wonderful conversation about the different directions and opportunities that could lead to. Even working in California. I wondered about going to school but he basically told me that if I get a degree in communications there will be thousands of graduates just like me and all in debt, but if I work with him and gain experience and stay out of debt I will be in a much better place to market myself for jobs. Even though I am not where I want to be (I seriously hate my job, it makes me depressed and the bad kind of stressed), the one thing I am glad about my career choice so far is that it has allowed me to be out of debt, gain work experience, and the freedom to keep my options opened because I am financially independent. I am pretty decided in moving forward with this, but I have so much doubt and am driving myself crazy with the pros and cons. I feel if I move I will be further away from certain family, have to leave a church family that I love and haven't had since high school, and I really do like St. Louis.Then I will have to find a new day job because that work I'd being doing for the church would be on a volunteer basis for now.  But then it's experience I would never get and could lead to many amazing things, I would get to live with my sister and her kids who I adore, and I could take a break between jobs. I feel like I have to pick and choose, and I fear that i'll never have it "all" meaning my whole family together, an amazing job, in a city with friends I love. Honestly, I am questioning my ability and my biggest doubt is in myself. I am constantly reminding myself that I just have to do my best for God in all my en devours, bloom where I'm planted, and God will be faithful through it all, good, bad, and ugly. Somehow I always question God's plan even though he has brought me through so much and has been so good to me. Trying to control things and force my own plans hasn't worked out for me thus far, God is so much bigger. I just have to focus on that and maintain a greater perspective. Anyway, that is where I am at right now in a constant state of panic attacks or elation. It is a confusing and exciting place to be, but again thankfully God is faithful.